It is... MY missionary!

 So this should NOT be coming at this time, but I can't very well tell you about my college life and not tell you about the guy that by some magical power helps get me through it all! I have a missionary now! His name is Jake and he has been out for almost four months! He's in North Carolina serving with all his heart and doing a mighty fine job! He's already the area leader...? Some type of leader and is serving everyone like crazy! Jake and I went to high school together, but never really talked... heck I knew his mom and little sister WAY before him! We officially met through our mutual friend Randy on a boating trip and after that day... I guess God took over and brought us closer together than ever! I know I know... it's a little crazy and hard to understand, but I'm happy so it is what it is! ;) We write once a week and act all cheesy and what not and it completely helps me get through the hard stuff!

 Jake's been such a blessing in my life is so many ways! He's helped me figure out what career I'd like to go into, He's helped me love myself the way I should, he's an example of charity and forgiveness daily, and he's a riot of fun! Even on his mission (which trust me I protest to) he's coming up with little ways to surprise me! He loves to give gifts! He does it for his family all the time too! I swear if someone banned the kid from serving and giving he would go into compulsion! He can't help it! When we first started dating is was SO weird for me! I've never had a boyfriend that treated me so kindly before! I didn't realize I could have a guy like that. He gave me flowers, he sent me on scavenger hunts, never once (well I think once) did he ever let me open the car door for myself (which to be honest irritated me sometimes) I love how independent yet very dependent I can be around him! He's always let me be my own girl!

 Probably the most significant thing about Jake is that he's always loved me for me. I've never been fake with him. We've never been fake with each other. We have a no secrets policy and to be honest it's amazing what that can do for your relationship as well as your integrity! That's how I knew I loved him. After dating for a bit I laid out ALL of my baggage in front of him and said "This is what you're getting yourself into". With open arms, Jake embraced my true self and accepted me for my past, present, and future! He's done the same to me and well... I like what I see! :) Ladies here's how you KNOW a guy loves you! When you can be your CRAZIEST self! and I'm

talking for example when I was eating ribs, had bbq sauce all over my face, as hyper as a cat jumpin out of a lake, spitting and making double chins with my best girlfriends, and he STILL looks at you and says "I love you" and just laughs with you! That's how you know you've got a keeper! Am I gonna marry the guy? IDK! But that's not the point... The point is for the first time I can look back at this relationship and say... "Wow! For the first time I'm not ending this one on bad terms. For the first time I can say that this guy put my heart back together after I broke it myself! Not some guy breaking my heart and me having to put it back together!" This one is totally opposite and I thank my Father in Heaven everyday for the things I continue to learn from dating my missionary! So you can go ahead and tell me I'm crazy! I already knew that! But I'm happy for a good reason, and I'm gonna take it!

It is.....BYU FEVER!

 So... I don't go to BYU, but I live in it's housing facilities. (P.s. If you're wondering if everyone here all lives in a bubble... you just might be right about that one! But I love it! It's not as bad as you think really? I'm probably one of the most innocent ones here!) So everyone that's here are pretty much BYU maniacs!! So I jumped on the band wagon and got myself a sports pass! I went to my very first UofU vs. BYU game... BYU lost... :( But it was still fun!... @ the beginning. So here are some pictures! It was great fun! I love these girls so so much! With out them college just wouldn't be college! Hopefully I'll have pictures up of my new roommates! They're great! Also of my new friends from Apt. 80!

(Above: Ashlyn and Me;
Right: Me, Sidney, Ashlyn)

So yes! This is all I have to write about right now! Love you all!

It is... A new type of blog!

I decided I'm going to make this blog about my college experience! Not just the spiritual (like my Journey to a better life blog), but everything! Hopefully I'll figure out how to work the blogging website and put pictures up as well! Not that my life isn't interesting.... but I want to stop using facebook so much. It's kinda becoming a hassle! So most pictures will be up here and ya know.. what ever else I feel like talking about. I'll try to make it interesting! I'm 20 years old now! I need to start doing grown up things like blogging! :P

Peace and Blessings!
Jacey!

It Is Complicated

People are complicated. Boys. Girls. We make things complicated for multiple reasons. Some make things complicated because they're not getting what they want. They think life isn't fair. They think, maybe, just maybe if I make a scene. I'll get my way. Some people make things complicated because they got what they want, but don't believe they deserve it. They need someone to pick up their self worth when it's not the other persons price to pay. Some people make things complicated before things even happen. They constantly analyze what's going to happen instead of just diving head first into life to find out! Some people make things complicated by diving in too quickly, and failing to find the happy medium of thinking and acting. Sometimes we're meant to make life complicated. Sometimes we're meant to be lost in our actions and thoughts, constantly trying to see a way out. Sometimes we're meant to be lost because when we finally find what we're looking for we realize our complications really have led us to glorious revelations.

People are complicated. Boys. Girls. Then one day we meet someone who suddenly makes everything seem like it's less complicated. Not that our complications have gone away, but you simply face life's complications together, and you know that as long as you two have each other everything is going to be O.K. You feel peace through complications. You may fight and argue with that person, but you have faith in them that they'll never leave your side no matter what. 

Love is not a complicated. When you love someone you put that person first. Simple as that. Love is beautiful, and threatening, and hard, but never complicated. We make it complicated when we're too scared to act, too stubborn to respond, or too lazy to do what needs to be done to keep love's flame glowing. 

Love is not complicated. People are complicated. When one person loves someone and the other doesn't have feelings in return, who's feelings are in the wrong? I guess you know it's true love when you two will easily love each other back and forth. You two choose to be with each other and be good together no matter the complications. 

Just remember, you can go your whole life being complicated, not believing in love or that anyone good enough will come along, but remember that love isn't complicated and as long as you're doing what's right you'll find someone that will make the complications a little bit easier. Sometimes that person isn't ready for you or sometimes you're not ready for that person, but it is what it is. Be patient! Do what's right. Love who you can! Try to make life a little less complicated. 

It Is The Beginning of a Very Cold Summer

Summer is my absolute favorite time of the year (after football season). I love the sun and the water! Last summer was probably THE best summer yet! I have to admit I'm a bit nervous for this summer and it's ability to top last year. I had to move back to Layton from Provo which was kinda a bummer, two of my best friends from college went across the country back home, and I'm kinda with out transportation... Hey! We make the best of it right? This summer is going to be the summer of new goals and accomplishing them to the best of my ability! For instance I'm going to be in training for the Nu Skin Utah Jazz Dancers! Starting Monday I'm starting a healthy diet and exercising (hopefully) for at least 2-3 hours a day. I also have to start the hunt for a new job since I had to quite teaching dance. :( Then I have to make sure school is going to work out! I'm super excited to go kick generals in the butt and get into my major of Behavioral Science! I was being stubborn with it at first and not really sure if I truly wanted to go into it, but I decided it will be the best option since I'm already pretty rockin' at it!

I'm super excited for summer because although I'm kinda having to start over with a lot, I get to take this opportunity to change and do things a little differently with my life! All I need is a tad bit of motivation... which I seem to be finding. :) Also another big goal for this summer is to learn more about finance and how all that junk works. Money issues aren't exactly my forte.

Well wish me luck! It's time to start acting and not just dreaming. However summer does seem to be off to a really great start!